When : Monday, 30th Octoberust 2006
Where : Capsule
Time : 11.51 pm
I was almost ruined. No, not about love or rejection, but about something I said, to someone whom I talked almost everyday today. A collegue who keeps Jesus in his heart.
It all started when I jokingly said, “I want to be a lesbian”
I know that I’m NEVER suited to be one. And there won’t be any woman who wants me. Hehe. And whatever shits I blurted out today was merely a joke. Anyway, who would believe my words? Me? A LESBIAN? Yeah right!
I can’t even take care of myself. How am I going to take care of another troublesome woman. Duh!
After hearing the magic word “lesbian”, my collegue’s mind started to float to somewhere dark.
“So u want to just have sex all day?”
“Like a hippie hah?!”
My mouth started throwing cannonballs,
“Well, Jesus do looked like a hippie to me”
Yes. How insensitive of me.
I thought it would be a nice gift for his Monday morning, but HELL NO!
The bomb ticked and eyes can’t stop staring at me. I didn’t hide nor run. I ended everything with a very insensitive smile instead of detonating the bomb or taking cover.
As if, god would side my words and kindly put a shelter on me somewhere.
I know talking, or worse, joking about religon can be a taboo sometimes, but still, I’ve failed to tame my mouth. I feel very dizzy and disgusted if I hold back too many words in the head.
Though calling Jesus a hippie is all due to his appearence, his hair, his dressing. So shabby and ropes (are those things around his waist called ropes?) dangling here and there. But doesn’t mean I said he looked like a hippie have to be a hippie! Right?
It’s his dressing, his appearance in movies and some painting. That’s all.
Of course, the damage is already done and there isn’t anything much I could do now except admitting my mistake and apologize.
In future, I better heed the old-timer’s advice, not be too honest when delivering jokes. Hold some for own head to laugh before someone decapitates my head. Hehe.
Ps : I am really sorry [insert name here please]. Very. And also to anyone who reads this. I’m sorry.
Oh wait! Can anyone tell me what “p.s” means? I used it umpteen times and I know nuts about it. Haha!
Yes, I am so bodoh and so anyhow kinda woman. And that’s a fact!
Bonne nuit globe!