WHAT I NEED NOW IS BASIC

What : Powerful Red Eyes
When : 4.31 am

Oh Sea of Love,

I am not asleep and not eating much still. Almost eighteen days altogether. Though I still do look flabby here and there, my weight is dropping and I bet there’s more to drop.

Oh don’t sigh, please. Sighing makes me puzzled.

Looking all puzzled would also gave my family an idea, a fundamental idea that their daughter is a warm-hearted heroine addict. Haha! So, let’s fuck sigh for once, ok?

Some said, “Slow death”

“Oh thank you”, I replied.

My darlings asked me to give a light knock on Roger’s head but since he is worshipping his new-pork’s year still, I am happy to let him go.

I would rather wait till 6th March than going without much cash in hand. My next appointment, that is.

Anyway, even if I go knocking on his head and door now, I simply don’t know what to expect from the oh-so-geeky Roger. Good or bad, it makes no difference to me. I don’t even particularly care about whether the pain that I am having now are killers or not. I rather be an ignorant to my well-being than knowing that I’m one helpless-being trying to be happy in a shortlived state.

Right, I could hear someone is calling me dark again. I am not, alright? I am just pale.

I’ve stored diazepam into my blood an hour ago but still, “Nongmerase see no reaction”. And waiting for something to happen, at this time, at this hour, is the last thing I would do. Maybe, what I need now is more people like Tuan Noor Azlim to cheer up the pill to work a.s.a.p!

And oh to u and u and u, do try to minimise that worries, ok?

I strongly believe that I won’t die that easily cause I have so much responsibilities not just in hand but on my shoulders too. U get what I am saying, kids?

Bla bla bla dumb dumb dumb, I could live still with the lack of food but not sleep.

TUAN NOOR AZLIM TUAN ABDUL RAHIM: i suka ur bahasa
TUAN NOOR AZLIM TUAN ABDUL RAHIM: so metamorphic
BETTIE HUSSEIN: oh?
TUAN NOOR AZLIM TUAN ABDUL RAHIM: and indah
BETTIE HUSSEIN: u mean metaphoric?
TUAN NOOR AZLIM TUAN ABDUL RAHIM: yaa
BETTIE HUSSEIN: hehe ok
TUAN NOOR AZLIM TUAN ABDUL RAHIM: metamorphic tu cite power rangers
TUAN NOOR AZLIM TUAN ABDUL RAHIM: =))
BETTIE HUSSEIN: LOL!

Ps : I also need al-cheapo scuds to redeem back all my memory on how to sleep early.